little experiments

Midway upon the journey of my life I found myself within a forest dark, For the straightforward pathway had been lost. -Dante, the first line from 'The Inferno'

For anyone who reads my blog, you might have noticed it's all over the road. There is a little of this and a little of that, some observational paintings, some from imagination. I feel like I have been on this directionless art journey, creatively lost in sketchbooks and other media for some time now - immersing myself in various schools of thought to see how it feels.

I've noticed that when I was younger, I had these definite ideas about life and what I wanted to do with it. Then unforeseen circumstances, like my job and making ends meet, changed the way I viewed those goals. Now I feel like I'm a mix of shady grays rather than black and white. I feel this can only be a good thing; afterall, shouldn't an artist be someone who never fully drinks the kool-aide and questions things, even the ideas of your own heroes? I think so. I really believe that the only way to understand what it is you want to say as an artist can only happen when you have a more full understanding of the various schools of thought and a certain knowledge and understanding of art history, as well as open minded appreciation of differing groups.

Lately, I am finally feeling like I'm coming out the other end with ideas that I am excited to bring to life. These tiny little watercolor experiments, which I did last summer, gel some of the ideas I've been thinking about - not completely, but just as little snapshots I suppose. I like the idea of archetypal characters, some realism, some stylized, and also a bit of fun with the format of painting. I think I prefer to work in oil, and I like the idea of making very small paintings. I am working on many more in my cozy art cave... self doubt abounds, but I try to just blow through that and keep working. I think it's good.